Thursday, November 3, 2011

Fighting in the Fifth Dimension - Al Jazeera World - Al Jazeera English

A must read article from Al Jazeera World.

Humanity wanted. Dead or Alive??

Tough times we're living in. Greed and self-interest (and not the good kind) are so predominant in our society, from our leaders to the common man. And i think thats a huge part of what's making us so effed up. Is humanity dead. No, i wouldn't say that. Is it alive and blooming? Barely..i'd say humanity is in a coma right now. It may wake up but then it again it may not. And i know Mahatma Ghandi, said that 'you must not lose faith in humanity, humanity is an ocean if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.' But what if it's more than a few drops?

We have this culture of apathy, of indifference even when we know about things. And yes, sometimes a person may feel like there is nothing much he can do to help the situation, but at least talk about it. Acknowledge it, whatever it may be. All the problems in the world. Just because they don't directly affect you, does not mean they shouldn't exist to you. Don't live in a cocoon when you're part of something so much greater then the little niche you've created for yourself. Care more.

“First they came for the communists, and I did not speak out— 
because I was not a communist; 
Then they came for the socialists, and I did not speak out— 
because I was not a socialist; 
Then they came for the trade unionists, and I did not speak out— 
because I was not a trade unionist; 
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out— 
because I was not a Jew; 
Then they came for me— 
and there was no one left to speak out for me.” 
 Martin Niemöller

Thursday, October 20, 2011


The United Nations conference on climate change and environmental sustainability is going to be held in Durban, South Africa this year and coincidentally that's where i live :D It starts on the 28th of November and ends on the 9th of December, with over 20000 delegates from all over the world.

I think we the youth need to be made much more aware of the reality of the state that our environment is in, especially in Africa where we are hit the hardest. Also since we the youth are the ones who will deal with the consequences and repercussions of not caring for the environment as we should, from energy, to climate change, to water and agriculture.

Waiting to hear back if i was chosen to work at the conference. I hope i am.
*to be updated*

Death and the revolts continue..

The leader or should i say former leader of Libya has just been announced dead, shot and killed while hiding, yes you guessed it in a hole. About time too, not his death per se but that they actually found him, with pictures of him already posted all over the net, here.

I guess its not that bad that he died especially since no one would have known what to do with him. Mubarak is still in trial, i wonder why anyway, yes he was evil but he's old now. In jail he will die, if he is let free he will die. What can security do when almost the whole country wants you dead. Do you just let them choose their doomed destiny. We are not a forgiving people, even when sometimes forgiveness is not deserved..

In Sudan as well, strike action and protesting is going on. I think it's great, may God protect them, our government will not be an easy one. Also, i think we need a plan before running into a revolution, learn from Egypt's mistake. It took a while for egypt to bring their government down, but to say they would prefer to be ruled by the military until they find a leader was a mistake. The army is taught how to battle, in their mind violence is the way to control and leads to victory, what makes one think that they won't use those principles that most soldiers believe in; to rule the country. "..After all you have your army killing your people, a long oppressed minority of it at that — but if one looks beyond what happened, one sees a very different picture. What happened yesterday was the beginning of the end of the military rule over Egypt: The days of the SCAF ruling are numbered. " This was posted after there were clashes with the military and the citizens. Basically, i'm saying get the government down in Sudan but have a leader, a good one ready to take the lead.

I guess we wait and see. More on Sudan to come. 

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

The ramblings of a scattered mind IV

Its no use feeling sorry for yourself, really, you may feel entitled to it for whatever predicament you may find yourself in. But it is by far the most futile bordering on detrimental thing. I don't know i guess its easier thinking that since you already feel down, to push yourself further instead of doing the more difficult thing and snapping out of it; by dealing with the situation even if it is just mentally. Arrange your thoughts and mindset. And sometimes what sucks the most is you cant even feel sad without it affecting another part of your life, i guess everything should be in moderation even sadness and i say that because i never thought of being sad as a bad thing, on some level it must be healthy to occasionally be a little sad, and believe it or not i enjoy my sadness,  But only if it isn't destructive to my well being, i guess..
It's funny you know, sometimes you know exactly how you want things to turn out, some of those things you have control over like the amount of effort put in to achieve them and then there are things that you have no to little control over and all you can do is pray to God to make them happen. For you God, nothing is difficult. I just pray it ends well, i wouldn't exactly say it has been my year. But according to Shakespeare, all's well that ends well. There is still hope, there is always hope. sometimes you just feel tired, of living, of life. Were we just exist, in our mundane daily routines, i never really got it though. How do you live and not exist while still doing the normal things in life like work, or study. I assume it's all a mental thing, controlled by only the mind. It's always in the power of the mind,

Sunday, September 4, 2011

This Twitter Thing

I used to think Twitter was really lame and i made it a point to let my friends know exactly how i felt. But recently i started logging into my account more frequently, and slowly slowly began to Tweet, several times each day. Now, i'm hooked, i don't really Tweet about personal things or intricate details of my daily happenings but just the cool thoughts that cross my mind, or cool quotes i've heard, or simply talk to my friends.

I am now making it my personal mission to get more followers, my target for the meantime is 100 followers. Help a sister out and follow me @dina_os

Over and Out.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Brand Sudan

Posted 10 August 2011 by Nicholas Kay | 
If Sudan were recruiting a marketing manager I wonder how many people would apply. Tough place. Tough job. Sudanese are legendary for their hospitality, gentle manners and erudition. Sudan, on the other hand is synonymous with war, atrocities, poverty and political repression. This disconnect between the essential nature of its people and its reputation as a state poses a marketing challenge.
It also makes the life of a diplomat hard. How do you interpret for your capital recent events? Did, for example, a delay in evacuating wounded Ethiopian peace-keepers contribute to their deaths and if so, what was the role of the Government of Sudan? How do you explain the ferocious response to the recent renewal of the mandate for the UN and African Union Mission in Darfur (UNAMID) and the increasing obstacles Khartoum puts in the way of UN missions here? And what should we make of the continuing refusal to allow humanitarian access to Southern Kordofan and, above all, an independent investigation of allegations of serious human rights abuses there?
Readers of this blog react differently to my views. One local newspaper has called for my expulsion. Another merely recommended a long holiday. While a foreign expert has accused me of being an apologist for the Government of Sudan, a fool and a disgrace to British diplomacy. I don’t write to please. I write because I know there is a real interest within Sudan (and perhaps more widely) in knowing what an Ambassador to their country thinks. An Ambassador has a duty to foster better understanding between two states. Understanding does not always mean agreeing. But it does require a mutual respect. In the end it’s about good communication.
To that end, the UK has enhanced its efforts to engage with Sudan over the last few weeks. We have hosted both Foreign Minister Ali Karti and Presidential Assistant Dr Nafi Ali Nafi in London. Two weeks ago Mr Henry Bellingham, Minister for Africa and the UN at the FCO, visited Sudan. He was the first Minister to come after secession of the South. The symbolism was deliberate. The UK remains committed to a strong and long-term relationship with Sudan. We shall be even-handed in our dealings with the two new countries. We are forward-looking and constructive in our approach. The Minister’s programme reflected this. He witnessed the signing of an agreement between the British Council and the Ministry of Education to develop teacher training for teachers of English; he attended the award ceremony for Chevening scholars selected to do their Masters’ degrees in the UK (twice the number of scholarships than in 2010); and he visited Port Sudan to see the development needs and economic opportunities in a region where the UK has committed to spend millions of pounds in development assistance over the next four years.
The UK’s strategic intent is, I hope, clear. We want to work with a Sudan that puts the interests of its people first. A Sudan in which good education, religious co-existence, access to justice, healthcare and jobs are its hallmark. Some of this depends upon choices to be made within Sudan. It is a choice, for example, whether the national budget for the intelligence service continues to be higher than the budget for education.
But it is also a choice for others who care about Sudan. Relieving the $38bn external debt is largely in others’ hands. Since last September the UK has consistently championed the need for this. Decisions by foreign investors and businesses also matter. They can play a crucial role in boosting economic growth and creating jobs. But will they choose Sudan when there are other markets competing for their investment and business?
My guess is Sudan will have to sell itself better. That brings us back to marketing. Sudan like any brand requires careful packaging and presentation. But, as we all know, success ultimately depends on the quality of the product. Sudan will be judged not by words, but by deeds.
I wish all readers a very happy and peaceful Holy month of Ramadan. Ramadan Kareem!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

the hijab

This group i'm on really is quite useless, at least they give me ideas to blog about. I'm Muslim, if it wasn't clear, and i don't like to expose my sins, but i'm somewhat ashamed to say i don't wear a hijab. I'd like to think i dress decently enough especially with the way young women these days are judgement here, just saying.

Nonetheless, i don't think anyone a man, or a women in hijab can judge one without it. Wearing a hijab does not necessary make you a better women than the next one. Our relationship with God is a personal one. At the same time i in no way defend women who do not wear a hijab, i just can't judge you because i myself am not perfect. Also, the intention of your wearing a hijab is important, for your actions are based on your intentions, and that is something only God and you will know.

When i do wear a hijab, i will wear it with discipline, and modesty. I will not let hijab be something i do, but something that i am. It does not mean necessarily wearing a cloak but so long as your body and shape are covered. I will not wear it for a few months get bored and take it off. When i do it, i want to do it right.

To all the women out there in proper hijab, i have a special respect for long as your doing it for the right reasons and don't put down our religion while you have it on.

Allah yahdina, and may He put us on the right track especially when it's become so hard to hold on to your religion.

Saturday, August 20, 2011


I'm not a particularly verbose person. I think that's why I like taking pictures... they speak for themselves-Jeb Dickerson

Nikon D3100, twin lens kit. Need i say more? 18mm-55mm and 55mm-200mm. A perfect start up for the photography enthusiast they say. I agree, a nice DSLR camera with great enough lenses for all your zooming requirements. The only question now is; what should i capture? The answer is anything and everything. There are no limits, not even sky high, not when there are footprints on the moon. For a photographer the world is your paintbrush, your colour, your everything.

The next thing i'd say you need is a really good photo editing program. I'm thinking the latest Adobe Photoshop Elements. Dreams are not cheap and in this case neither are hobbies, so you better start saving your paper. Or if you have willing parents, you better start pleading your case. If you're young enough..

A photograph is usually looked at - seldom looked into.  ~Ansel Adams

I know having a fancy-ish camera does not making you a photographer, hell even having a camera phone or digital camera can make you a photographer, albeit not a very good one but so long as your photos have soul, then you are..And if your shots earn you money then regardless of your equipment you are a professional photographer.

Why, i like it? It's simple really. A picture says a thousand words, the nice part is it says it without really talking. A picture is a moment in time caught forever, it is a memory saved. Photography teaches you to not only look but to really see the beauty that surrounds you. The way you see things begins to change, you will start to see the splendor of this world in everything, wether it is sad or happy. And that's not something many people consider or thing about when looking at things and objects that seem very normal/average/common.

So, here is to an new soon to be start. If i impress myself, then i'll share it. If not, then some things are not meant to be shared. This is me trying not to oversell. We'll see how it goes.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

The ramblings of a scattered mind III

I feel inspired tonight, i just don't know where to put this inspiration, or how to work it. I tend to start of really well and trail off with an ending that is too i have over 20 posts with great starts and no conclusions. It's Ramadan these days, i've had better of the month, but i'll take what i can either way.

New things are happening, and there is a lot to look forward to, stuff i've been waiting for, for weeks are finally around the corner. Right now though i just feel like i'm going through the motions, letting the tide take me where it may. I don't mind it.

over and out.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Misery breeds.

As Fall out Boy would say, "misery is over-rated"

For the average person, misery is more like a spasm, it is felt in those momentary times of failure or disappointment. It can blind you like in the case of Hitler or it can ruin your life and lead to your suicide, also like in the case of Hitler. You can decide how misery affects your life. As they say, "Its all in the head." If you choose to allow it to govern your life, it will only lead to destruction, however, if you turn it to your advantage, a world of Utopia inevitably awaits. All the successful people known to us today, didn't have everything handed down to them, well most of them anyway. They all started down in the ruts like anybody else. They made something of themselves. They rose above their misery and became the people that we admire. Nelson Mandela didn't cave in and declare a white flag to his misery whilst in prison. He educated himself and refused to be put down by the oppression of the white man. 
If Misery is like gravity then defy Newton's laws or go to space. Misery doesn't always need company, all it needs is a relishing force to transform it into something beneficial. Dr. Gregory House used his misery to save lives while Oppenheimer used his to destroy them. We all just need a little direction when it comes to misery, it could end up being the difference between Professor X and Magnito.


Sunday, June 19, 2011

Energy Vampire

Just wanted to share this great article about energy vampires, something i know way too much about, unfortunately from experience. When they walk into a room, you feel tension levels sky rocket, and whenever you talk to them you would usually end up with a negative emotion. I don't know if you can actually blame them because they are unaware of their behaviour..but sometimes you can't help but feel an animosity toward them.

Saturday, June 18, 2011


Women driving in one of the richest monarchy in the world may seem trivial and insignificant in the face of the loss of lives in the Arab revolutions that have recently taken place and still continue to take place. However, every country has its own trials and problems, for Saudia Arabia it's gender inequality. And this is a great first step to a huge problem, maybe one day they will be able to vote and live their lives without the unnecessary supervision of their male relatives. Grown women do not need a man to open a bank account or get a bank loan, drive to the store, to own property or rent apartments and so on. These 'laws' are no where inscribed in Shariah (Islamic Law) and are simply cultral restrictions placed by primitive thinking men.

Yesterday, 17/06/2011 women in Saudi Arabia, were driving with almost no arrests. Lets hope this one drop is the start of heavy rainfall on gender inequality.

Twitter hashtag:  #Women2Drive

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

the ramblings of a scattered mind II

Sonnet 116
Let me not to the marriage of true minds,
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark 
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks 
Within his bending sickle's compass come: 
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks, 
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Here we are again, when there is too much to say and then it just comes out as rambling. Today is June 15th, at 8:22 South African time there shall be lunar eclipse. Which is great if you want to see something white turn to red. Hoping i can get a really cool picture of it, there isn't a cloud in the sky. Speaking of clouds they seem to follow me everywhere i go, which is fine, you get to a stage where you don't actually mind it. I find out i really like to cycle and tennis, if it's with my friends. I know i said i'm going to make my blog less about me, and i am but that does not include my ramblings, these are very much  about me and my thoughts. I find it strange when people say Ignorance is bliss, i mean i would agree but at the same time find myself conflicted with my own thoughts, by that i mean it would depend on the type of 'ignorance'. Sometimes you don't know wether knowing something is good for you, wether it would benefit you, improve you or wether it would be to your detriment. Knowledge is strange like that. Another thing that's strange is love, silly old cliched love, which i've learnt a lot about these past few weeks (don't ask how, or where). They say love never asks you to change, but at the same time that it improves you. Obviously it depends if you love the right person, and it's possible not to. There is no such thing as a soul mate, there is a compatible mate. Love does this foolish thing to you, it makes you oblivious to real world things, I may even go far enough to say it may make one selfish. Or perhaps that's the infatuation part of it, the part i hate the most when i see it in other people that is. I don't know i guess i'm way too much of a realist, slightly pessimistic to care about that part of it. I don't want to be oblivious, and not any more selfish than i already am. Another strange thing is that people always tend to associate love to marriage. I wonder where that even stems form. Don't get me wrong love may eventually lead to marriage, but the initial way was that marriage eventually led to love. And if you ask me the latter method lasts much longer than our new age 24 hour marriages. Also, love is the most weakest foundation to build a union as strong as a marriage, it needs more than that, much more..well enough of that.

I've been wondering lately and by lately i mean today, about the formation of a person's personality. I would love to know how i became who i am, and by that i mean the specific external and genetic factors that have made me; me. Is it even possible to connect the trait to the factor that caused it? You want to know what the world's main problem is; consistency. It really is, we all say we want to be better, want to stop drinking, want to learn something new, have resolutions, want to pray all the time, studying more, absolutely whatever it may be, if you don't do it consistently, you're not doing it right. But it needs so much to be consistent. It needs you to be active, and not lazy, it needs determination and dedication, it needs motivation and the list goes on. Qualities that are not very easy to form, and once again be consistent with. Yeah, i know this post is really long, there's more on my mind but i think i'll leave it for another time..

Friday, June 3, 2011

Politically themed.

I'm not a very good political writter nor do i have the knowledge to be one, however i do enjoy following many politically themed blogs. If you're interested in reading any then just refer to the 'blogs i follow'. Very interesting, some heartbreaking things related to human rights and so on, and being aware of what is happening is a must. Most of them are based around in the Middle East and North Africa especially with all the revolutions that have take place and still are taking place.

Monday, May 2, 2011

People I

"ooh the people I've met, Are the wonders of my world"

“We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.” Fydor Dostoevsky

''..appreciating all that is real and wonderful in the world, starting with the people. People are very diverse so connections we make with the people we meet, and human interactions in general are intriguing. You can feel at home in a place simply by remembering all the people you've made connections with there''

We never keep in mind the relationships we have with people, the importance of those relationships, people whom we've known our whole lives and those who we meet only for a short while. We underestimate the importance of those around us. The laughs and arguments we have with people, the experiences that build up our character through out our lives, and enrich it. Perhaps it is an unspoken gratitude, being grateful to others for just being themselves. But you should at least think about it sometimes.

Mercy be coup.

A man was killed.

Today Osama Bin Laden died. He was killed by Americans. Sweet revenge and retribution on the man who single handedly flew two planes into the twin towers, YAY no more terrorism. Americans: the most gullible flock of sheep.

I don't believe that Bin Laden ever bombed the Trade centers but that it was an act by the American government against their won people for whatever reasons, a possible one being to create animosity and hostility towards Muslim people and nations so that if the time came for them to start a war with an Islamic country under the pretext of it being a war against terror but it actually being a war to control oil trade then it would be acceptable by Americans, who would blindly support it.

I don't know Osama, wether he is immoral, unethical, violent, ruthless or the complete opposite. I do believe that he took the hit and that he was framed for most of the things that he was accused of. His death is no occasion for celebration. His death will not bring back the lives that were lost on that day. His death will not have any major effects on terrorism. His death was simply a point of the White house finishing off their lie. His death does not prove any point, it somehow puts Americans in a bad light. It has been a decade, move on already.


Friday, April 1, 2011


I haven't written in a while, been up to my neck with Uni, well kind of anyway. There is/was a somewhat huge strike there these past few days, students seeking financial aid. Which is all well and good, because it was promised to them, and a promise is a promise but careful.. we don't want to go creating a Welfare State because why should you work for something when you can get it for free nah mean?

So, back to the point i've been running from angry mobs of students and dodging rubber bullets and tear gas bombs (there i go exaggerating again, but i did)

Loving Adele and her amazing voice (drool)

this one is called 'right as rain'

Friday, March 18, 2011

Some of home..

I came across these pictures on a private group on Facebook and was glad when i got permission to share them here. If you ever wondered about the lifestyle of a somewhat traditional Sudanese household/family, i have never seen anything more descriptive than these pictures. I'm not sure who draws them but being from Sudan and seeing how people live i would say it is very accurately detailed and beautiful. Each one shows a different aspect and ambience of the culture and customs. I LOVE THEM.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


I hate it when i want to write but all my main thoughts seem incomplete. Well, it's 15th March, it's my birthday tomorrow..i turn 18. I'm not as excited as i usually am, i hope i'm not mentally getting old..although i feel old. Not too much tonight. Also, i want to start writing less about myself and start writing more about my opinions on things, whatever they may be.

God Bless and Good Night.

Monday, February 28, 2011

the ramblings of a scattered mind..

''I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart i am i am i am.'' Sylvia Plath. 

Today, i have no peace of mind. Something, i hold dearly. I know i am a chronic procrastinator but really, i find my procrastination worthless if the worry of it's consequences consumes my mind. And i'm a forgetter if i can't handle something, pain, then i forget about it, just push it to the back. I feel rather overwhelmed, with everything, lately. I don't care what happens, it's easier this way or so i tell myself. Life is so simple, why must we always complicate things, because we really do, with our thoughts. We over think intricate details of silly happenings. I spend a lot of time in my head, all my time really, always thinking. Too much solitude is not a good thing for me, but i must say i love it. It's weird really. I love being with people just as much as i love being by myself.  After school i somewhat assumed things to be different, i don't know how but i just did, but now it's like the more things seem to change the more they stay the same. And the more they stay the same the more they seem to change..don't you think it's strange. Yes that is from a song, but it sounds like something i would say. I like stars. Like looking at the sky at night, and truly feeling just how small i am. In this huge universe, in the world, in comparison to the billions. So small, hardly anything. And i don't wanna fall to pieces, i wanna be strong, like the strong women i know. The women i someday want to be like. Why can't i have more control of the things i do, the things i want. Because i'm lazy that's why. I know what i have to do, i just don't want to do it with zest or any enthusiasm. Funny thing control, power, we thrive on it. Be it the false sense of control we give to our self or the worse type of control that we take from those whom we see as beneath us.  Those we see as weaker, then we over power them, without even noticing really because it happens so naturally. And i always think what if. What if things don't turn out how you plan, ''one of the main reasons why old people get nostalgic about their youth is that when they were young, they didn't know how things were gonna turn out'' what happens when you reach the point when you know that things are in fact not going to turn out how you wanted them to when you were younger. All we can really do is wait and see, and do everything that we are supposed to in getting where we want to go, right? Another funny things is youth. When we have it we don't want it. We would swop freedom for youth in a second. Swop it for independence. But when we lose our youth, and not only in terms of age but in terms of mentality and innocence, then we wish we hadn't. We all want what we don't have, but you can't want something that you already have, all you can do is appreciate it, but we don't. Not until we lose it. You don't miss the water until it's gone. And then it's too late, really. I wish i was more. More good things. I wish i was the best i could be. In everything i did. I don't mind being mediocre, though, not if i'm happy with the standard of my mediocrity. Life is too short anyway, but that's only if you're dying soon. If you die at say 80 then your life wasn't short, it was actually quite long. They say life is short because you could drop dead any second. But do we really think about death happening to us at any second? Like right now? Death, another funny thing. I don't know what's gotten into me today that i feel that i must say the first thing that pops into my mind. But this, after all is my blog. It's fear. That's what i;m feeling. At least i thing it is. I hate the feeling. Of fear. It's such a weak emotion. What do i fear? Loss. Probably. Losing people i love. Losing my dream. My religion. My way. My self. Fear, can't live with it can't tell it to screw it self. Speaking of religion, i once heard someone or perhaps read it, that you can't truly love something or someone you fear. I don't know if i disagree. To tie it up with religion. You must love God, and you have no reason to fear Him unless you know you are doing something wrong. Does that mean only good people truly love God? I'm not sure, but as a normal, imperfect person i must say that i fear and love Him and that it's possible. Because sometimes you do things without knowing their repercussions. Anyway. Inspire me.  Maybe some of this makes no sense. But maybe, you relate to some of it, somehow. It's weird, and weird is good. Weird is interesting. To me. God bless us. That's all, folks.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Univershity :/

The hot sun and cool breeze hit me as i stepped out of the car feeling confident as ever in my new jeans and sandals. My timetable in hand i sucked in the atmosphere of the university. It was my first day and there were students everywhere, freedom hung over me like heaven. I remembered i had to meet the new friends i made during orientation and that we would go together to our first lecture, excited and feeling rather grown up, i set out to the new life waiting for me. It was just as i expected and i looked forward to all the new experiences.


''No power in society, no hardship in your condition can depress you, keep you down, in knowledge, power, virtue, influence, but by your own consent''
-William Ellery Channing 

Okay, perky dial turned down a few thousand notches, that description is the furtherest possible of how my first day at 'univershity' actually played out. With my luck i wouldn't expect it to happen any other way, and the pessimist cynic in me was not surprised whatsoever. (After accepting my bachelor of administration offer and registering for it, i found out that i got accepted for business commerce. Naturally i had to deregister from administration and re register for commerce, sounds simple enough, but its turns out that i need a million signatures not only from the dean but from my lecturers as well) Now while registered for one thing and attending the lectures of another and knowing not many people; everyday i set out to my new hardships. I always knew i wasn't very good at making friends, not that i'm conceited or  anything but i just don't always have it in me to approach new people or sustain a conversation, especially at the beginning. However, it's not all doom and gloom, i do enjoy the lectures, even though i feel slightly behind, oh and they're all air-conditioned.

It has been a week so far and things seem to slowly get sorted, not that it has been easy, and honestly i don't know how it'll turn out hopefully for the best but so far i'm not enjoying it. And as always i know i just started, but, i CAN'T WAT FOR IT TO BE OVERRRR.

Also, i miss my school friends so much, they all seem to have moved on, which is all well and fine. I guess we all have to at some point.

Over and out.

Monday, January 10, 2011

After all..

It's been a while since i'd last written here, just got caught up in the holidays..not that i celebrate Christmas or anything but it's just the whole atmosphere i guess, and not forgetting the new year's celebrations.

A lot has happened in a short period of time, a new year with new experiences waiting to happen, new lessons and so on and so forth, but for some reason the excitement of it all has not yet hit me. I have always lived looking only at the future, that i sometimes forget to slow down and just enjoy the present, smell the flowers and what not. So, this year i have no resolutions except to 'just live' and of course get closer to my Lord, which is a lot harder than it sounds.

I have so much in my head that i want to accomplish but self doubt always seems to be getting in the way, i mean it's just difficult not knowing what's going to happen or where you will end up but in more ways than one i guess it's easier to not know then to know, ignorance is bliss after all or is it??